I NEED TO CRY!

I DONT NEED FAVOURS!

I DONT NEED PEOPLE WHO ARE ONLY WITH ME BECAUSE THEY FEEL PITY OF ME!

I ONLY NEED PEOPLE WHO REALLY LOVE ME AND CARE ABOUT ME!

IF SOMEBODY DOESNT LOVE ME, IF THEY REALLY DONT CARE ABOUT ME, IF THEY FEEL IM TOO MUCH IN THEIR LIFE, IF THEY THINK I DONT BELONG TO THEIR WORLD, IF THEY FEELTHAT IVE NO SPACE IN THEIR HEART.......

SO PLEASE, BE SINCERE AND TELL ME THAT!!!

I WILL LEAVE THEM IN PEACE, I PROMISE! I WILL NEVER MORE BOTHER THEM!

BECAUSE I REALLY DONT NEED FAVOURS!!!

oh my God! i want to disappear!!!

(i should have the courage to go away........)

Missing

Only a little post here to tell that i miss so much all good moments i had in my life with people who were (and still are) so special for me and to whom i thought i was special too.....

good moments that are gone and will never come back again.....

life changes, people change........only me doesnt change......i keep needing those moments as i needed when they happened.......and i keep missing them so much :-(

but well, thats life, isnt it?

maybe i should change too.....so it wouldnt hurt so much........

i only needed to tell this......

nothing more......

New stuff in my blog

Maybe i need to get a life lol because im puting things in my blog that maybe nobody will see lol but today i decided to add some things :-)

i added two radios: one is the Spiritual Connextions Radio that belongs to the Spiritual Connextions site (a great site dedicated to spiritualism and to all people all over the world interested in this subject) and this radio is, till now, the only online radio also all connected with spiritualism.......it has a very good choice of songs and it also has interviews to famous spiritualists, live shows and interesting programmes about this subject.......



the other radio, i created it today in a portuguese site dedicated to music......its called Cotonete, funny name lol..........i chose the kind of music i prefer and i wish people will enjoy the songs there :-) i prepared it to play when this page is opened but sadly this radio cant be listened in Firefox browsers, only in Internet Explorer........anyway, if you want to listen to Spiritual Connextions Radio or to any video posted in my blog, better first turn off this radio which i called Blue Station :-)

the other thing i added to my blog is a poll.......in this first poll i ask people what do they think about my blog..........well, i hope somebody will answer to it, because me, as the creator of this blog, i cant answer lol...........anyway i gave more than one month to the end of the poll.......now, please be honest! im curious to know your opinion :-D

Our earth

I found today in internet the impressions that the astronauts made about what they felt when they saw the earth from the moon......and they are really amazing.........in fact, must be an unique experience to see our beautiful planet from so far, and only see its beauty............it looks like theres no bad things in this world, no pain, no hate, we live altogether in the same planet, a very fragile one but plenty of wonderful things all around us :-)



ASTRONAUT'S IMPRESSIONS ON VIEWING
THE EARTH FROM THE MOON
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"The view of the earth from the moon fascinated me - a small disk, 240,000 miles away. It was hard to think that little thing held so many frustrations. Raging nationalistic interests, famines, wars, pestilence don't show from that distance....If some stranger came from another part of the heavens, he would certainly know instinctively ...that the destinies of all who lived on it must inevitably be interwoven and joined. We are one hunk of ground, water, air, clouds, floating around in space. From out there it really is one world."
----- Frank Borman, commander of Apollo 8, the first lunar mission



"The soft, glowing presence of planet Earth in the black abyss had a pristine clarity uncaptured by photographs. Images on film lack the subtle shades, the brightness, and the depth of the living sphere, which bulged out of the blackness as I sailed outward on Apollo 11... From the deep blue of the Mediterranean, all of Europe and Africa sprawled away in soft pastels, innocent of political boundaries. And from the surface of the moon, where I could cover with my thumb the site of all human history, the Earth seemed fragile as a Christmas ornament, drifting like a lost balloon on the black velvet of space. The image of a living Earth, capable of extinction, disarms illusions of individual or tribal isolation. We gained more than altitude in those 66 years from Kitty Hawk to the moon. Seeing Earth not as an extension of man, but man as an extension of Earth."
----- Buzz Aldrin, lunar-module pilot of Apollo 11



"It was something so awe-inspiring you had to sneak a glance at it every chance you got." ...[Seeing the Earth from that vantage point convinced him it must have been created by a higher power.]... "It's too beautiful to have happened by accident. To me, it was like sitting on God's back porch, looking back home."
----- Gene Cernan, Commander Apollo 10

A sad story

I received this sad story months ago in my email box and today i found it and i will post it here because its very touching........

“Boy, I am really easy to touch ...

I was walking around in a store. I saw a cashier hand this little boy his money back saying "I'm sorry you do not have enough money to buy the doll."

Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ''Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?''

The old lady replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.''

Then she asked him to stay there for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly.

The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to.

"It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."

I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus will bring it to her after all, and not to worry.
But he replied to me sadly. "No, Santa Claus cannot bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mummy so that she can give it to her when she goes there."

His eyes were so sad while saying this. "My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister.''

My heart nearly stopped.

The little boy looked up at me and said: "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the mall."

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me "I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me."

"I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister"

Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy. "What if we checked again, just in case you have enough money?''

"Ok" he said "I hope that I have enough." I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: "Thank you God for giving me enough money."

Then he looked at me and added "I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me.''

"I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose.''

"You know, my mummy loves white roses."

A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my basket.

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I
started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.

Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car, where there was one young lady and a little girl.

The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.

Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away.

I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the Funeral Home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest.

I left the place water-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.”

Luna

When i was in the World New 7 Wonders show, one of the artists invited to sing there was Alessandro Safina........till then, i havent heard much about him, so i was ignoring what was going to happen........only who was there can understand what i felt.......when he started to sing his wonderful song Luna in that beautiful stadium, the magnificent music coming from everywhere, it was like a dream, and in some bits, the highest moments of the song, the most touching, i confess i even felt a cold in my spine..........

its a very special song and its sung in a very special way.......and even being spoken in italian, i understand most things that are said there........italian is one of my favourite languages, it belongs to my 3 favourite languages (the portuguese, the english and the italian).........its such a sweet and romantic and beautiful language, i think :-)

and that song also talks about the moon, thats a planet i love, it has so much importance in my life, it gives us company in the night, it shows how in different places in the world so many people can be watching at the same time the same moon and how that connects those people who are so far away from one anothers...........

so i thought that song deserved a post here in my blog, and i will put here its lyrics both in italian and in english, and ill put two videos i found in YouTube, one its the original video and other one its a great video with wonderful images of the moon :-)



Luna
(Alessandro Safina)

Only you can hear my soul
Only you can hear my soul

Luna tu
Quanti sono i canti che hai ascoltato gia
Desideri che attraverso i secoli
Han solcato il cielo per raggiungerti
Porto per poeti che non scrivono
E che il loro sennospesso perdono
Tu accogli i sospiri di chi spasima
E regali un sogno ad ogni anima
Luna che mi guardi adesso ascoltami

Only you can hear my soul

Luna tu
Che conosci il tempo delléternita
E il sentiero stretto della verita
Fa piu luce dentro questo Cuore mio
Questo cuore d’uomo che non sa, non sa

Che l’amore puo nascondere il dolore
Come un fuoco ti puo brucaire l’amima

Luna tu
Tu rischiari il cielo e la sua immensita
E ci mostri solo la meta che vuoi
Come poi facciama quasi sempre noi
Angeli di creta che non volano
Anime di carta che si incendiano
Couri come foglie che poi cadono
Sogni fatti d’aria che svaniscono
Figli della terra e figli tuoi che sai

Che l’amore puo nascondere il dolore
Come un fuoco ti puo brucaire l’amima
Che l’amore puo nascondere il dolore

Ma e con l’amore che respira il nostro cuore
E la forza che tutto muove e illumina

Only you can hear my soul

Alba lux, diva mea, diva es silentissima



English Translation

(Only you can hear my soul)

Oh Moon
how many songs you have listened
wishes that wandered the centuries
cutting the heavens to reach you
refuge for poets that never wrote
and all those thrown into lunacy
you invite the sights of lovers
and give a dream to all souls
moon, who guides me, listen now

(Only you can hear my soul)

Oh moon
who you know time and eternity
and the narrow walk of truth
send more light into this heart of mine
the heart of a man who doesn't know, oh doesn't know

that love can hide pain inside
like a fire that will destroy your soul

(Only you can hear my soul)

Oh moon
you light the heavens in their infinity
you show only what pleases you
just like we do every time
angels made of clay, inable to fly
souls made of paper, that will burn
wilted like leaves, that fall
dreams made of wind, that will fade
children of the earth, children of the moon, that know

that love can hide pain inside
like a fire that will destroy your soul

(Chorus sings latin: light of the dawn, my goddess, my so silent goddess)

but it's love our heart beats with
and love is the force that moves and illuminates everything

(Chorus sings latin: light of the dawn, my goddess, my so silent goddess)

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My desert

My heart is like a desert
where the only voice I hear
is my own voice

Walking for years
among dunes all alike

The sand is hot
but my soul feels so cold
And at night
I can't see any stars in the sky

I think it's too late
to find my flower
in this desert

I think it's too late
to find my oasis
that will save me

But I will keep walking
and walking
until my feet hurt
until I have no more strength

And one day
I will give up
of looking for nothing
in this desert

The desert of my life

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