i think sometimes it seems life has a very weak sense of humour......i mean, it plays silly tricks on us that make us feel really crap, and you know that at that moment some people you know but they dont really like you, they are enjoying it as if they were eating the best ice cream of the world...they dont need to do anything to annoy you, because life makes that for them.....you feel as if some "divine" punishement was there for you, to punish you for your feelings, for your acts, for your thoughts :-(
sometimes its very simple things, but they really put you down....and its funny because it seems "somebody" is chosing the "best" moment for it...
everyday i try to do my best to please everybody...i think the ones around me, they deserve it, and i also know they do the same for me...and when this is mutual, i mean, when this works in both sides, its great for everybody...
but sadly, this doesnt happen everytime i want....sadly, there are some people i cant please, whatever i make...and if i ask for something very simple to them, it seems im asking for something completely impossible...then i ask to me, if those people really love me, if they are really my friends....
(oh my God, my bloody doubts :-(.......)
then life decides to play a stupid trick on you....and you feel like Bridget Jones in her beautiful dress that she took hours to chose, when the cars pass near her on the rainy road...you feel as if the world has finished, isnt it?
and worse than that, you know that the ones who dont like you, they are laughing at you at that moment...nobody is guilty, only the destiny...its life....and you wait and wait that things will change one day, because you dont know how much more time you will be able to handle with this...
i think im not explaining very well what im feeling, but i cant explain it better......its so confusing.....i only know its not nice, and that it makes me feel so crap :-(
(i need some sun to dry my dress...)
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