Thinking about thinking

So here its me again, talking for nobody lol

the last post i talked about my addiction to Bubblez! i said i wasnt able to pass level 20, but after that i was so happy because i passed it and i reached level 28 wahooooooo! sadly dont know what happened and one day i tried to open the games page but it had problems in loading and when it did, all my game had gone :-(

i know its a bit childish to be annoyed with such an insignificant thing but the fact is that i felt really frustrated.......and i was so annoyed that i didnt play it for some days, but today i started from level 1 again and im already in level 15 :-)

i know im too old to lose my time playing these games but the truth is that i enjoy it and so many times while im playing, i forget silly things in my life that upset me..........it seems all my attention is there in those coloured bubbles and in making them disappear, and problems and frustrations go away.......bit weird in fact, because i play with other people, people i dont know, and in that moment those people are maybe the only "friends" i have..........they are enjoying the same game as me, they are there, i know it, and they dont disappoint me.........how many times in real life, people we love and we care about, they dont love the same things as us, they are not there when we need them, and so many times they disappoint us? how many times?

so thinking about thinking, the other day while playing this game, i started to feel such a sadness that i began to cry like a baby.......silly me.............why i was so well playing this game thinking about nothing and suddenly all my dark clouds came and dominated my heart? i couldnt stop crying, really dont know why, it looked like a thousand tears were hidden inside my soul waiting desperately to go out..........i was so absent minded and all that sadness took advantage of that, making me think in things i didnt want to think about, making me remember bad moments in my childhood, my frustrations, my disppointements, my broken dreams :-(

then i think how funny is life, because we are never happy........theres always something missing...........we may have so many good things in our lives but theres always at least one thing that we miss...........is that fair? maybe its fair, because in one hand, a total happiness is completely impossible, and in other hand, we give more importance to good things we have when there are things that are not so good.............

i always give this example: we always give more importance to a tree in the middle of a desert than to a tree in the middle of a forest, isnt it? so, if we only had trees in our heart, maybe we wouldnt give much importance to each tree there..........but if our heart is kind of a desert with not many trees, each tree for us is more precious than gold..........

yeah, in that moment suddenly i felt real miserable..........dont know why that happened to me.........maybe life is like this game called Bubblez...........we are all our life trying to reach the highest levels, but sometimes for some reason, all our work disappears and we must have the courage to start everything again from the zero...........again and again..........

bye for now and sweet dreams :-)

XXXXXXXX

Bubblez!

Yeah, im kind of addicted to this game :-) if one day you will see there some Thumbelina playing, well, thats me :-D but cant pass the level 20 grrrrrrrrrr

Bubblez! Bubblez! is a multiplayer version of the classic Bubble Shooter game!

Play this free multiplayer game now!!!

Letter from God

Believing or not in God here is a letter ive received the other day in my email box :-)

"To: YOU
Date: TODAY
From: GOD
Subject:YOURSELF
Reference: LIFE

This is God.Today I will be handling All of your problems for you. I do Not need your help. So, have a nice day.

I love you.

P.S.

And, remember...

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do Not attempt to resolve it yourself !! Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. I will get to it in MY TIME. All situations will be resolved, but in My time, not yours.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

If you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work; Think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad; Think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; Think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror; Think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair to examine.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities; Remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them!

Should you decide to send this to a friend; Thank you, you may have touched their life in ways you will never know!

Now, you have a nice day,

God"

Two quotes

"Most people walk in and out of your life.........but FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart."



"Great minds discuss ideas. Average minds discuss events. Simple minds discuss people."

Once upon a time......

I received this story in an email and i loved it so much that im going to post it here :-)

"Once upon a time there was a bunch of tiny frogs.... who arranged a running competition.

The goal was to reach the top of a very high tower.

A big crowd had gathered around the tower to see the race and cheer on the contestants....

The race began....

Honestly:

No one in the crowd really believed that the tiny frogs would reach the top of the tower.

You heard statements such as:

"Oh, WAY too difficult!!"

"They will NEVER make it to the top."

or:

"Not a chance that they will succeed. The tower is too high!"

The tiny frogs began collapsing. One by one....

Except for those, who in a fresh tempo, were climbing higher and higher....

The crowd continued to yell, "It is too difficult!!! No one will make it!"

More tiny frogs got tired and gave up....

But ONE continued higher and higher and higher....

This one wouldn't give up!

At the end everyone else had given up climbing the tower. Except for the one tiny frog who, after a big effort, was the only one who reached the top!

THEN all of the other tiny frogs naturally wanted to know how this one frog managed to do it?

A contestant asked the tiny frog how he had found the strength to succeed and reach the goal?

It turned out....

That the winner was DEAF!!!!

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The wisdom of this story is:

Never listen to other people's tendencies to be negative or pessimistic.... because they take your most wonderful dreams and wishes away from you -- the ones you have in your heart!

Always think of the power words have.

Because everything you hear and read will affect your actions!

Therefore:

ALWAYS be....

POSITIVE!

And above all:

Be DEAF when people tell YOU that you cannot fulfill your dreams!"

The truth

Wont comment this film, only will say that the truth often comes from the voice of children.......but are we, the adults, wise enough to listen to them?

This world..........

Im in one of those moments when i need to write a post to try to take away from me the bad feelings im having now :-(

sometimes i dont like this world where i live and i wanted so much to have the courage to go away from here...........stupid world where theres only pain everywhere...........why live in a place where innocent kids are constantly hurted? where adults hurt other adults, even not wanting to? where theres so much suffering and loneliness and war and hate? where people kill thousands of baby seals and other animals every year only because of their fur? where human beings keep menacing and destroying the nature? where pure feelings are often forgotten? where friendship is so many times only a way of passing an empty time? where is so rare to find real love as to find a diamond?

why am i here? will this stupid world miss me when one day i will go for good?

in this moment, i dont believe in dreams, i dont believe in love, i dont believe in happiness............i only believe in sadness and frustration..............i believe in people who, to forget that they have nobody, they pass hours in front of a PC playing for hours silly games with people they dont know, eating cookies and getting fatter and fatter and even more lonely........i believe in people, people like me, who keep talking to nobody about their deepest feelings, and never have a word of comfort...........yeah, these world is plenty of these kind of people, people who dont believe anymore................

is it worth to keep living in this sad world???

Feelings and objects

Life keeps giving lessons to us........ive been having a few problems, very annoying, and those problems made me forget a bit that the most important thing on earth arent the objects that we can touch with our hands, but everything that we can touch with our heart...............but sadly some objects also touch our heart and its not easy to get rid of them............because those objects are connected to people and people are connected to feelings...............

but objects are material and all material one day vanishes...........starting by our own body, when we die, it transforms in dust................

we may have an old object and put it in the bin and buy a new one, isnt it?
all objects are replaceable..........and even if theres some object we cherish and its unique, time will slowly destroy it............

so , what really matters in this world? the soul, the feelings, the connections we make with the others, with the world.............those things never die............when somebody is gone one day, people will remember them for what they were, and not for what they possessed.............and the body will transform in dust, but the spirit will remain in our hearts, and will keep living beyond the death..........

im talking about this because of what ive said in the first line of this post............life keeps giving lessons to us..........and life gave me a lesson today................when i was feeling bad because of the problems i have been having, one of my sisters found a little paper with these wise words written there:

«What you give, it's yours forever. What you keep, it's lost forever.» (Eric Emmanuel Schmitt)

thats so true...........there are things nobody can take away from us........never :-)

About lies

Why lies exist? are we able to live without them? how many times somebody lies during all their life?
little lies, big lies, white lies, dangerous lies, so many kind of lies...........and i dont believe that somebody hasnt lied at least once in life...........even if its to avoid some bad situation or to hide some hurtful truth...........

then i think................i read once this quote: «I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you» (Friedrich Nietzsche)........but is it possible? because if it is, we cant believe in anybody else............even in ourselves..............

what world is this where we dont know if everything that people say to us is true? and worse than that is when that happens with people who are close to us...........people we think they love us and care about us and suddenly things change, and although our heart keeps telling us to trust in them, theres always things that make us feel they are lying to us............but we want to believe in them, we try to find stupid excuses to accept everything they say to us, even if they are not logical................and in that moment its us who are lying to ourselves, isnt it?

«The worst lies are the lies we tell ourselves. We live in denial of what we do, even what we think. We do this because we're afraid. We fear we will not find love, and when we find it we fear we'll lose it. We fear that if we do not have love we will be unhappy.» (Richard Bach)

so i will keep doing what i always do..........i keep believing in people as long as they give proofs of their friendship, as long as they show they care about me and they need and trust me...........even if sometimes there are little white lies i feel they are telling to me, maybe to hide some unuseful but painful truth..............i want to believe in those people because i also know they believe in me :-)

but if there are people who often show they dont care about me and about my feelings, im very sorry but i dont believe in those people.........its so sad but i must do that...........because i need to survive in this big mess where we all live............

anyway, as George Bernard Shaw said: «The liar's punishment is not in the least that he is not believed, but that he cannot believe anyone else.»

i believe that people who keep lying during all their lives, they will finish one day all alone in the middle of their own lies.............

Message for Madeleine

Dear Madeleine

im listening everydays for more news about your vanishing a few days ago, and so sad that the news are always the same.........everybody looking everywhere for you......but nothing........

where are you, little Madeleine?

how unfair is this world where suddenly little and innocent children like you, disappear...........and so many others all over the world.............

why there are so mean people who can do these things to kids??? why they make that??? are they able to sleep at night with a clean conscience???

i feel so sad not only for you, little Madeleine, but also for your family and for all people all over the world to whom it happened the same thing...............

but, dont know why, i still have the hope one day somebody will tell me: "you know? they have found Madeleine! and shes fine thanks God!"......i still have that hope and im sending all my thoughts to you and i deeply wish that an angel is looking after you and that he wont let anybody hurt you.........

so please be brave and dont cry...............i feel you will be back :-)

a very tight hug and all my love

XXXXXXXX

A sword in my soul

Sometimes I feel a sword in my soul

I am in the dark
Looking for the light
And when I touch it
It vanishes away

People tell me
That somewhere there is a star
Waiting for me
And that I can hold it in my hands
With no fear of losing it

Are my eyes closed?
Or am I blind?
Where is my star?

Where is the rainbow
That one day promised
It would bring me
To the land of happiness?

Why I keep holding dreams
That will never come true?

Why I want so much to fly
But I was born with no wings?

Why?

Why it's so dark everywhere?
Why I feel this sword in my soul?

Anonymous

Bubble Shooter game

This game is really addictive :-)



thanks again to the King of Chatalot :-)

Flying away...........

Do you know the feeling of having something you love and cherish so much for so much time, and suddenly you feel its going away from you?

as if you had a butterfly in your hands, you look after it, you care about it, it gives you joy to see it flying around you with its beautiful and multicoloured wings, but one day you realise that butterlfly that you love so much, wants to go away....maybe very far away......

you feel your heart broken because that butterfly doesnt need you anymore, doesnt love you anymore, it only wants to be far from you, in other land.....

and you feel things have changed, although you are just the same, but you must accept things as they are now.....

and you want to have the courage to let your butterfly go away, you want to open your hands to free it, but something very strong inside your heart doesnt let you make that.............

do you know the feeling that a part of you is leaving and you simply cant do anything against it?

and that you must always show a smile although you are crying inside your heart...........

it can be anything........a butterfly, a bird, anything............or anybody...........a brother, a friend............

do you know that feeling?