life with my father wasnt easy and he has already gone years ago and i still blame him for things that happened or didnt happen in my life.......he made my family and me suffer so much because he was such a difficult person.........only the day he died i found out he was schyzophrenic....i never thought he had that disease.....nobody had told that to me nor to my sisters.........i always thought he had a very difficult personality and that there was nothing that could be done.....
i knew he didnt love me and so, so many times he hurted me and humiliated me......and i had to accept that.......those things we cant forget..........those things will be our shadow till the end of our days...........we cant get rid of them........
but sometimes i think things could be different, who knows? and who knows if my dad loved us at his own way? i know he suffered inside his heart, he always felt misunderstood and rejected by the society.........but why we payed for that? we never ask our parents to be our parents.........we are born to this world without asking for anything.....but if we have a bit of love around us, thats pratically enough, as the water that plants need to survive.......but if we have no love, why that happens? have we done something wrong in other life and then we must pay for it?
confused thougts always in my head and in my heart and so many times i wished things would have been different........and so many times i blame my dad for my weaknesses..........am i right? am i being fair?
and i only hugged him once all his life, a few days before he died..........
Christina Aguilera Hurt Lyrics
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, oooh
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back
Ohh I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, ohh
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
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